Thursday, 2 February 2012

This not a new year resolution...

Dear blog, I just sent this email to my family, my theory on putting it up here is I can't go back on my word if it's public knowledge, its time to make some serious changes, so here I go. Keep dreaming and keep it beautiful, welcome swallow.


Dearest family, 

It's no surprise to each of you that I have food issues...big ones. My stupid brain has a broken 'stop before you become a fatty' switch, an it doesn't help that food is so gosh darn tasty. As we all know I had that moment a few years ago, the one where you can change your lifestyle now or end up obese with diabetes, so I made changes and lost 20 kilo. Well right now I am having another, I've abused my body so badly over the last year and now I'm paying for it. I can no longer ignore the fact that I have gained 8kg, and some may say they can't see it, well I can feel it. I am officially back to being that girl who can't fit even her chubby jeans, and there's no denying it, 8 kg is practically 10, and that's half way back to where I started. I am also very conscious of the fact that I could become a chronic yo yo dieter, and there is no fucking way I'm living my life like that. So here goes my new 'lifestyle plan' I am officially going wheat, sugar and fat free. I'm aware that I won't be entirely fat free as I still need good fat to function, but I'm largely giving up all junk food and crap. Reading the first few chapters of Alicia Silverstones 'the kind diet' has really made me think, I am definitely not ready to be vegan, but after assessing my diet it's quite clear that minus all the junk food I'm almost vegan anyway. I already drink rice milk and don't eat much meat and what I do eat is tinned tuna. So I've decided to go as vegan as possible, if not for a life time, then long enough to cleanse my body of all the abuse and then eventually realise I can actually live this way. Here are my exceptions, birthdays and major holidays and special occasions (I will still order/eat with caution but I won't completely deny myself) I will eat the rest of the food in my fridge and tuna in my pantry, but once that's gone I will not buy anymore, same goes for my stash of kit kats.
I may also continue to eat cheese, I'm currently undecided on this subject because I really like cheese, and I don't have it that often, when it comes to the milk and cheese debate I'm not super jazzed on the whole industry as opposed to it being bad for me, hmmm.

So dear family, that's the gist of it, and all I ask in return is your support and understanding, which I know I will undoubtably get, but I will really need your help as we all know I have a weak mind and a knack for justify the eating of junk food. From now on, just because I haven't had it in a while doesn't mean I'm allowed it, there's no such thing as one bite and every little bit counts.

Potentially loosing my marbles, 
With love Sofia xx